The Voices Within Me

It pours.
I am so tired of life. I am tired of sickness and pain and bad news. How much more can we take?
So, as many of you know, my inlaws were in a pretty bad car accident on Sunday afternoon. MIL has a broken collar bone and some stitches in the side of her face, FIL has whiplash and is really sore- but thankfully unscathed other than that. That is a call you just never want to get...
Fast forward to today...Addie has had a cold for a little over a week. We were at the Doc's last Monday and we were just to "keep an eye on it" since it had just started the day before. Well she really didn't get worse, but didn't get better. I called and made a follow up appt. and was about to take her in today. Following a long visit, the Dr. and NP were concered at what they were hearing in her lungs and wanted me to take her to the hospital for a chest X-ray. If you have ever had to take your child for one of these, you know how heart-wrenching it is to see them strapped in this little tube with their arms up over their heads... Well I had to take her alone b/c Tim needed to be home with Micah. We were going to take Micah to a friend's house for the time being, but he threw a fit and it was honestly better than I suck it up and not be a baby about taking Addie than throw him all out of whack. So off I ventured to Mercy hospital alone.
Thankfully I didn't have to be there all that long, Addie did really well, I did shed tears most of the way there and again most of the way home, but I survived. Not long after coming home, the Dr. on call called us and let us know the results. Addie girl has viral pneumonia. They started her on anti's for the time being and my regular Dr. is to call tomorrow and let me know the next course of action. Guys, I am so scared. This is my baby. My little girl. I don't want to put her down tonite- I just want to be close until all this is over. Thankfully, she doesn't seem to be real bothered- she doesn't have a fever and has been eating really well most of the time. The Dr. was encouraged by this, but there is still the seriousness of this diagnosis. I have no idea what he will say tomorrow. He had hinted that if it was pneumonia, he felt as though it wasn't so progressed that it would require hospitalization. I am of course to call immediatly if she seems to be any worse- he said he would be in contact immediatly.
Please pray for my baby. Even if you normally don't pray, please offer up healthy thoughts for her. I never knew being a mother could hurt this bad. My heart is being torn out- I wish I could take all this away. Right now she is breathing normally in my arms here- and I am and will be praying that she continues this way throughout the nite and next few days. I need to be strong, I know, but sometimes it is just so hard.