The Voices Within Me

It is hard to believe that it has been a year since we got the call that no one wants to get... one that told us that Tim's dad had unexpectedly passed away. I can still remember it like yesterday... Micah was at school (much like today) and I was sitting downstairs surfing the internet. I remember taking the phone up to Tim and I remember the look on his face and hearing what I thought were words I wouldn't be hearing for a long time. I remember the feeling of dread, of hurt and the unknown... I remember crying at the thought of telling the kids b/c they had just spent the day before with him and I knew how much they loved him... I remember wanting to just hold Tim and take all the hurt away and how I wanted to do anything to go be with his Mom. How fresh it is sometimes...
Even though all of that still remains a part of me, what I have come to realize is the amazing legacy he left and how that is what affects me more than his death. He helped raise four wonderful children and I can only imagine the pride he felt. He lived for others, he shared the message God gave him and through him so many other people's lives changed, mine included. I am so thankful for having him as a part of my life and my children are blessed to have been able to have him as an influence in their lives, no matter how short it might have been. Micah still thinks of him often, but it is always relating how he is up with Jesus... and we all have no doubt that he is having the time of his life of there.