The Voices Within Me

I had a wonderful start to my morning, beautiful warm sun streaming in my window, laughter from my kids whom awoke with the first shaft of sunlight (but yet let me sleep in until almost 7:30) and the melodic sound of birds chirping outside my window. I love mornings like that- everything seems so much clearer, joyful, optimistic. (I won't add in that some of the pureness was taken away when my daughter came in and told me that I stunk- her new favorite thing to tell me... and then ran away in a fit of giggles)
I wish every morning could start that way- what a happier place this world would be. The morning has gotten progressively better as I now sit at Starbucks after having finished two HUGE things on my work to-do list before Silas makes his arrival. Life is good.

Yesterday was a sad reminder of a person that has now been missing from our lives for two years. It seems hard to believe at times that two years have gone by but though that time has passed he will never be forgotten. I have been thinking about him quite a bit recently as we are about to have little Silas- I know how proud he would be to have another little Beck boy to carry on the family name. He was so excited for Micah to carry on tradition and unfortunately, he won't even get to meet little Silas. I know he will be watching down but I really wish Silas could have know him...

I have so many little things to do in the next week- time is going to pass quickly. I want to really spend time with Micah and Addie as I know they could get lost in the shuffle of a new baby and then of course tidy up other things here and there. It is crazy how little time is left... eek! I hope I can be a good mom to three- kinda getting nervous here!!